First of all, Hello. My name is Cary. Once before, I tried to tell about my experience, but I took too long with too many details. So this time I wrote everything down. God revealed His gift to me through Embarrassment, Jealousy, Fear, Frustration, and a Miracle. And I believe God revealed it to me because I began to read His Holy Scriptures.

Through EMBARRASSMENT God revealed His gift to me. About three years ago, I was asked to participate in a Bible study group. At first I refused because I was hanging onto my Jewish identity. But then I accepted. Just like in Exodus, where God calls His chosen people stiff-necked. That was in Exodus 33:3. I never knew about this stiff-necked business growing up-going to Hebrew School, and getting Bar Mitzvahed. So there was definitely a sense of embarrassment when I read that.

Through JEALOUSY God revealed His gift to me. We finished studying Exodus, and I realized that I was studying with Christians, not God's Chosen People, Jews. And I thought, Why didI not know what the Torah says? I thought, Christians know. I want to know. So there was that sense of Jealousy.

At this time I wanted to question my people, to know what they think about God's Word. First I called my Rabbi, who Bar Mitzvahed and married me. I asked him about God calling the people of Israel stiff-necked. His answer was something like, "Yes, they did not obey God. Then I asked about the message of the Psalms, Proverbs and Prophets. But his reply was, "They were great men, but there are many other books you should read." General consensus, I think, of a Rabbi who just wanted to avoid the message.

My quest continued. By studying the Torah, I came to Deuteronomy. When I say "Torah," I mean the first five books of the Bible. It seemed to me that the Torah, the Law, was given as a curse or a blessing. But since it's impossible to follow the entire Law, the Jews must be under a curse. I asked the Rabbi about Deuteronomy, chapter 11, verse 26, and his reply was very misleading, as if to avoid the question, "You must think you are under a curse." I was not satisfied with the Rabbi's answer, so I continued studying Scripture.

Through FEAR of the Lord, God revealed His gift to me. The next book our group studied was Matthew, in the New Testament. At the time, my business was making and selling items to large shopping mall chain stores. I was tempted by one of my large customers to copy someone's artwork for a big order. And I did it. The original artist found out about it and tried to sue me. Now we studied Matthew, chapter 5, verses 25 and 26, where Jesus said, "Settle matters quickly with your adversary who is taking you to court. Do it while you are still with him on the way, or he may hand you over to the judge, and the judge may hand you over to the officer, and you may be thrown into prison. I tell you the truth, you will not get out until you have paid the last penny." [sigh!] I followed God's instructions. The dear Lord delivered me.

Through FRUSTRATION, God revealed the truth to me. Through frustration with my family and witnessing other Jews' disobedience of God's laws as given to Moses, God revealed more truth to me. I understood, or I came to understand the New Testament book of John, chapter 5, verses 45 through 47, where Jesus said, "But do not think I will accuse you before the Father. Your accuser is Moses, on whom your hopes are set. If you believed Moses, you would believe me, for he wrote about me. But since you do not believe what he wrote, how are you going to believe what I say?" So this is how I was expressing my frustration with people that I grew up with.

And through a MIRACLE, God revealed His gift to me. By the prayers of my Bible study friends God saved my dad's life. My dad had four strokes, and was pretty much diagnosed as a vegetable by three neurologists. Two are Jewish, one is Chinese. But God heard their prayers and God answered. My dad woke out of his "brain dead" state and was and is clear minded. Praise God Almighty for that! My specific prayer was that, like the story of Lazarus in John, chapter 11, God would say, "No, it is for God's glory that this sickness will not end in death." This miracle served to increase my faith.

And finally, through studying Scripture, God revealed the truth to me. I was born a Jew, and by faith in Jesus Christ, I was born again. I study daily with my wife. I've been in study groups in the books of Exodus, Matthew, Daniel, Romans and Isaiah. In Daniel and Isaiah I came to realize that God's prophecies are true from history. The dear Lord came into my mind and the Lord called me out of darkness. Studying Scripture increases my faith daily

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